quoting Nessari:

quoting Morrígan:

quoting Nessari:

quoting Morrígan:

I just... I really don't know. According to OKCupid, Toronto is filled with gorgeous lesbians and bisexual women; worse, OKC always tempts me by including Toronto in places which are "near" Buffalo. It isn't.

OKC routinely suggests gals to me from Hawai'i, Alberta, Kansas, and San Diego. *glances at her location*

Not that I've managed to message more than one person on there ever or anything.

Well, that trumps my sitch. On the other hand, I was invited to an MFF threesome, so I have that going for me. I'm not sure I'd be ready for that, even though I kind of wish I was more comfortable with it. I might meet these people casually and see how it goes.

Well OKC does suggest many gals in&around Seattle, I just can't bring myself to message any of them because self-worth problems (caused by an alphabet list of stuff but mostly and worstly by Borderline).

Seriously, I feel so inadequate. And Borderline suuuucks, not that I need to tell you - my ex was a really intense case, and I felt really bad about breaking up with her, but she wasn't getting any help and refused to make changes in her life to reduce her chances of getting triggered.

Anyway, mutual feels. I'm doing better in that I don't really hate myself, and I at least feel attractive now, but I'm always plagued by rejection fears.  Being trans complicates the process - eventually I'll have to blog about it.