I just don't know how to train myself to be more consistent, or too accept what my voice sounds like it, since everybody always hates their own anyway.

I think I just have some kind of phobia of invasive medical procedures. I should get over that in case i need to get my fat moved around. Hopefully that isn't necessary, but I've been slowly losing weight since before starting HRT and it hasn't stopped. But then again, my testosterone has been really high - it was still 300ng/dl a couple of months ago.